I haven't had a lot of time to sit and think about what to write in this little blog of mine. When I do have time, that is when I want to shut my brain off. I've recieved so much information regarding Fairbanks, the state of Alaska, gold mining, the pipeline, etc....it's like the saying about drinking from a fire hose. The top of my head feels like it's blown off and there is no more room!
I did have a thought though, while "break up" was happening, and the snow was melting and revealing all kinds of things that had been hidden all winter. I believe the snow started falling in October last year, and has pretty much dissapated in the last two weeks.
I thought of myself as the ground under the snow, underneath layers of propriety, smiles, appropriate clothing and attitudes, the right words to say to the right people....but underneath, am I cold? Unwilling to absorb any warmth from the One who created me? Am I who I am because of what people expect of me? What happens when the snow melts and all the garbage that has been hiding for a long amount of time is exposed?
In Fairbanks, they have set aside a specific day in May, where people in the community come together and "clean up". The poor thawing ground can't clean itself...but others can help! When I feel I'm at a place where I'm helpless to change....there is hope. Others can help!
Am I willing to allow people see the real me, the messy me? Or have I clung to my cold exterior, hoping that part of me will never be brought to Light?
Things to ponder...I want to melt....this summer..
